My Senior Year

My senior year is here and now I just don't know what to do. I feel extremely overwhelmed and I just don't know how to figure things out in a good way. I have been trying to handle work, friends, soccer, school, and I am now living with my boyfriend who I usually only see maybe an hour or two a day if I am lucky. I never really hang out with just me and my friends. They are always too busy for me or they have to be with their boyfriends. Doesn't it ever get boring being with the same person all the time? I would like my friends back. :( Soccer is just as stressful. I am proudly a captain, but at the same time its just a burden. I kind of hate it sometimes. I feel like this is my senior year and we aint getting anywhere with it. I mean obviously we are doing better than we did the years before, but we couldn't get much worse. I am ready to actually do something with the talent that we have because I'm not going to lie..... I think girls soccer will suck next year. Then of course there's good ole work. I hate everyday that Im there with a burning passion and I wish it would just die. I hate that place so much and they just dont understand why. Everytime I walk into that building, I can feel my happiness fade from me. Last but not least, there's Trevor. I love him dearly and miss him all the time. I feel like I live with his mom instead of him because he's never home or he's sleeping when I am awake. It breaks my heart and I really don't know how much longer I can take it before I blow up. I am very lonely nowdays because my friends are too busy for me and my boyfriend is always working. :( I guess someday I'll make it through everything and figure everything out, but until then, I'm pretty sure I am in a depression. I may be smiling, but my face doesn't always show what I am really feeling.